When one thing dangerous occurs, our pure response is to ask why. It’s additionally pure to search for one thing or somebody guilty for this misfortune. And this will typically lead us into the world of conspiracies.
I used to be on the air on Friday, April 8, 1994. Within the pre-internet, pre-social media period, radio was how everybody stored up with information in actual time. The afternoon went like this.
alancross · Kurt Cobain’s Demise: Minute-by-minute bulletins from April 8, 1994
For the primary few weeks, there was no query Kurt had died by suicide. However little by little, doubts started to creep in. Ultimately, there was a full-blown Kurt-was-murdered narrative that prolonged to speak exhibits, books, and documentaries. There are nonetheless those that imagine that Kurt couldn’t have taken his personal life and can level to an countless record of inconsistencies within the official story together with “proof” that exhibits nefarious actions by shady individuals.
Cease it. Simply … cease.
Having adopted this story from the very starting — and having spoken to individuals closest to Kurt many instances through the years — I’m satisfied that he did in truth kill himself. Let’s deconstruct the conspiracy theorists’ proof. Sure, there are some unfastened ends, however life isn’t like a 44-minute episode of CSI. On the entire, although, the rational conclusion is inescapable.
1. Kurt was killed as a result of he was threatening to interrupt up Nirvana
THEORY: Tom Grant, a detective employed by Courtney Love to search out Kurt when he bolted from rehab — and a serious proponent of a homicide angle — claims that Kurt was prepared to interrupt up Nirvana and be a part of Courtney in Gap. It is a quote from an interview Kurt gave to a French TV journalist in August 1993:
“It’s a pleasant thought (collaborations with Courtney). I’d wish to, however to let you know the reality, I’d reasonably simply give up my band and be a part of Gap, you realize, solely as a result of when I’ve performed music with them, there’s a stage of connection that’s a bit of bit larger than with anybody else I ever performed with. It’s wonderful,” he mentioned.
“It’s completely satisfying for Courtney and me, however fully unrealistic as a result of we’re already so intertwined with one another,” he continued.
“Most individuals don’t consider the band Nirvana, they consider Kurt and Courtney, and it will get in the way in which. Folks would simply overlook the music and look into different issues. It’s such a tragic state of affairs. I want we might simply be a part of bands … (however) it wouldn’t be thought of an actual band.”
REALITY: The insinuation is that as a result of Kurt was going to kill off Nirvana, then he wanted to be killed off, too. That is plain foolish. Calling an finish to Nirvana would possibly annoy his bandmates, his administration, and his file label, however bands break up on a regular basis. Nirvana had been in a precarious state of affairs for years, so the thought of every little thing exploding at any second was a lifestyle for everybody.
The concept of an artist eager to make music with their vital different isn’t uncommon, both. Good day, John and Yoko. Good day, Paul and Linda.
Breaking apart the band so he might work with Courtney? I might see it. However as a motive for murdering one of the vital well-known rock stars on the earth on the time? Hardly.
2. The divorce risk
THEORY: It’s no secret that Kurt and Courtney had a tumultuous relationship. There have been home disputes requiring police visits, their drug use, and anecdotes in regards to the couple from individuals who knew them. Courtney was reportedly indignant that Kurt had refused an invite for Nirvana to headline the 1994 Lollapalooza Pageant.
There’s some veracity to all this. In January 1994, Kurt advised Rolling Stone that he and Courtney had been considering a cut up with each contacting attorneys about drawing up the mandatory paperwork. There was additionally speak of fixing wills and pre-nups. And was Kurt having an affair with an unnamed lady?
REALITY: Look, each Kurt and Courtney had huge personalities. Put them in a relationship collectively, add in a number of cash and loads of medicine, and you’ve got a recipe for drama and catastrophe. Issues will probably be mentioned within the warmth of the second. And sure, typically issues escalate to disagreeable ranges. However turning to homicide? And on the time when Kurt is considering to interrupt up Nirvana and be a part of Courtney in Gap?
And let’s not neglect {that a} month earlier than his loss of life — and hours earlier than his suicide try in a Rome resort room — Kurt had gone out and acquired Courtney all types of costly items. (He additionally stole some candlesticks from The Vatican for her). And about that suicide try: If Courtney actually needed Kurt useless, why didn’t she simply let him die when he took all these capsules in Rome?
3. The unknown enemies
THEORY: Within the months main as much as his loss of life, Kurt seemed to be very afraid of somebody or one thing. It might need been the medicine inflicting paranoia, however the worry was actual. Kurt had a stockpile of weapons and ammo in the home. A brand new safety system was being put in on the home on the time of his loss of life.
Theorists imagine that somebody needed retribution for Kurt turning down Lollapalooza. And why had been three shells loaded into the Remington shotgun that Kurt used? Did Kurt load the gun or did another person?
REALITY: Kurt did dangle round with some shady drug individuals, all of whom knew he was a heavy consumer with some huge cash. Everybody in Seattle knew the place he lived, too. Having weapons for cover? Not a shock.
The presence of additional shells within the gun has been introduced as proof that one thing was fishy. I’d theorize that as a result of Kurt was extraordinarily excessive on the finish, he wasn’t precisely in the most effective mind-set. Perhaps the gun had been loaded a lot earlier. Something on the contrary is pure hypothesis.
4. The bank card
THEORY: Kurt used a MasterCard to guide his closing airplane experience residence from Los Angeles to Seattle. Across the identical time, Courtney, who knew Kurt had gone lacking, had his card cancelled. But somebody stored making an attempt to make use of the cardboard to get money advances. There was an try to get $5,000 on April 4 over the cellphone with a name to MasterCard. There was one other request for $2,500 after Kurt died. And there was a closing try to safe $1,000 shortly after that. After which on the morning of April 8, the day Kurt’s physique was found, somebody tried to make use of the cardboard to by $43.29 value of flowers.
Who was doing this? Unknown. Nevertheless it will need to have been the assassin who stole Kurt’s bank card, proper?
REALITY: There’s no proof that it was Kurt making an attempt to get the money advances. Bear in mind, these had been requests revamped the cellphone and had been all declined, in all probability as a result of whoever was calling didn’t have the fitting PINs or safety data. Perhaps Kurt misplaced his card. Perhaps he gave it away to a drug good friend. And I’ll guess that whoever tried to purchase the flowers on the day Kurt died was trying to lay them someplace in tribute to him. It is a unfastened finish however by no means does it level to homicide.
5. The suicide word
THEORY: Why the distinction within the handwriting all through Kurt’s suicide word? Why using totally different colored ink? Based mostly on his examination of the word, detective Tom Grant believes Kurt didn’t write the entire thing (two handwriting analysts apparently agreed). To him, the word appeared like a press release of retirement, not a closing word to the world. Why no point out of Frances, Kurt’s daughter? Why no correct signature? The word ends with “Kurt” spelled out in small letters.
And what about an alleged second word? There’s a narrative that Courtney discovered one other word months later in a sealed enveloped in her bed room that apparently detailed how Kurt was going to depart each her and Seattle. Extra grist for the homicide mill?
REALITY: That is admittedly one other unfastened finish, however Kurt was hardly in a great place on April 5, 1994. He might have already been fairly excessive when he wrote the word. Kurt was a visible artist in addition to a musician, so the totally different colored ink could be a part of that. Perhaps in his altered state he simply needed the word to look fairly.
As for the second word, its existence has by no means been verified.
6. The toxicology report
THEORY: In brief, conspiracists imagine that Kurt injected a lot heroin into his system that there was no manner he would have been in a position to purpose the gun and pull the set off. They level to the toxicology report —which was solely partially launched on the time however leaked with a bit of extra element in 2024 — which indicated Kurt had loads of medicine in his system together with diazepam (used for treating anxiousness and alcohol withdrawal), codeine (a light opioid painkiller), nordiazepam (a muscle relaxant and anticonvulsant), and 1.52 milligrams of morphine per litre of blood. That’s a lot. (Heroin turns into morphine as soon as injected.)
How might Kurt have that many medicine in his system and nonetheless handle to neatly pack up his syringe package, purpose the gun, and hearth. Inconceivable! Somebody will need to have both (a) helped or (b) did all this to Kurt. Homicide!
“It’s extremely unlikely that he would shoot himself up in each arms, put the needle away in his little package, after which have the psychological capability to sit down there and manipulate this shotgun and shoot himself,” Tom Grant advised Excessive Occasions journal. “If he wasn’t unconscious, he was no less than to the purpose the place he wasn’t conscious of what was happening. Anybody might have achieved something to him.”
Oh, and Grant believes that the notorious picture of Kurt’s head is a pretend, a inventory post-mortem picture of somebody who had an unlucky encounter with a lawnmower.
REALITY: There aren’t as many unfastened ends right here because it seems. First, Kurt was an skilled junkie with a particularly excessive tolerance for heroin, giving him simply sufficient time to finish all the mandatory duties after he injected his final dose. Maybe he injected himself in phases, searching for the fitting stage of euphoria to perform what got here subsequent.
Extra doubtless, although, is that the outcomes of the toxicology check had been misinterpreted and brought out of context.
When you learn that quantity — 1.52 milligrams of morphine/litre — a technique, it seems that Kurt had almost 12 instances the deadly stage of morphine in his blood on the time of his loss of life. However we’re unsure if this quantity represents “free morphine depend” or “complete morphine depend” — and there’s a giant distinction.
A free morphine depend measures the quantity of medicine injected right into a physique at a particular second. A complete morphine depend measures traces of the drug over a protracted time frame. As a long-time common heroin consumer, it’s extremely doubtless that the toxicology report features a quantity that describes the cumulative buildup of medicine in Kurt’s system over weeks and months, not hours. (See this text from the Nationwide Library of Medication. This text additionally seems to be on the potential discrepancies.)
In a case like Kurt, a recognized longtime drug consumer, it’s extra frequent for a health worker to go together with the overall morphine depend check, which is cheaper, sooner, and doesn’t require the identical specialised tools as measuring a free morphine depend. Was Kurt’s final injection deadly and rendered him incapable of capturing himself? Based mostly on the toxicology methodology and outcomes, no.
7. The crime scene
THEORY: No clear fingerprints on the shotgun? Somebody will need to have wiped it clear. Who? The assassin, in fact. Who had barricaded the door of the greenhouse? Why didn’t Kurt simply give himself a deadly overdose and never trouble with the entire messy gun factor? Who organized the physique simply so and even perhaps combed Kurt’s hair after he died?
The forensics report reads like this: “The merchandise was processed for prints on 05/06/94 by Sr. ID Technician T. Geranimo, #4466. 4 playing cards of latent prints had been lifted. The 4 playing cards of lifted latent prints comprise no legible prints.”
REALITY: I can think about Kurt’s palms being sort of sweaty in these final seconds, can’t you? In April 2014, Mike Ciesynksi, a retired 20-year vet of the Seattle PD with loads of chilly case expertise, opened the Cobain file. He dove deep into the case and went by 35 mm movie that was shot of the crime scene. This helped him reconstruct how the gun was fired. Consulting with a firearms skilled, it was decided that there was nothing bizarre about the place the spent shell landed, the place of the gun associated to the physique, or the physique itself. His conclusion: “The investigation on the loss of life of Kurt Cobain, which was carried out 20 years in the past, reached the right conclusion that the style of loss of life was [suicide].”
In 2021, the FBI made their Cobain case file public. It was all of 10 pages lengthy and contained completely nothing new apart from two extremely redacted letters from a few followers asking them to look into Cobain’s loss of life.
8. The El Duce allegations
THEORY: Eldon Hoke was the frontman of a noxiously obscene group referred to as the Mentors, buying and selling underneath the identify El Duce. He claimed that Courtney Love supplied him $50,000 to kill her husband throughout a dialog outdoors an Los Angeles file store. “Off the previous man earlier than he recordsdata for divorce,” was the plan. Earlier than El Duce could possibly be formally commissioned, Kurt was useless. The implication is that Courtney discovered another person to do the job.
REALITY: If you realize something about El Duce and The Mentors, I’d name Eldon Hoke an unreliable narrator. Sure, he took a lie detector check on nationwide TV and handed, however that’s not admissible in courtroom. We’ll by no means get to grill El Duce any additional on the matter as a result of he was decapitated when he was hit by a practice on April 18, 1997. He was very drunk strolling residence from a gig.
There are a number of extra conspiracy angles, however I’ve coated all of the essential ones.
Lastly, contemplate this. Dave Grohl believes Kurt killed himself. Krist Novoselic believes Kurt killed himself. So does Kurt’s mom and father. So do two of Kurt’s former managers and I’ve spoken to them straight. And having frolicked private time with Courtney, I don’t imagine any of the allegations towards her. You could disagree, which is your proper. However you’re incorrect when you assume Kurt’s loss of life was something however a depressed, determined, drugged-up younger man taking his personal life.
Life is messy and loss of life might be even messier. However as a result of we have now this pathological function of the unknown, we’re at all times going to search for any rationalization which may quiet our minds. Within the case of Kurt Cobain, we have now our solutions.
—
Alan Cross is a broadcaster with Q107 and 102.1 the Edge and a commentator for International Information.
Subscribe to Alan’s Ongoing Historical past of New Music Podcast now on Apple Podcast or Google Play
